Lent Day 14 Reflection
“And I will appoint you as…a light to the nations, to open blind eyes, to bring out prisoners from the dungeon and those who dwell in darkness from the prison.”
I am a church girl…there, I said it. I remember walking down the aisle of Immanuel Baptist Church at the ripe old age of seven and professing my faith in front of the whole congregation. I can’t remember a time in my life where God was not in it. I attended a Christian school through 7th grade, and all the people in my life were just like me. That all changed in 8th grade when my parents and I made the decision to enroll me in Berwick Junior High. Junior high is such a great time to make a big transition right? I had an upset stomach every morning…the ENTIRE year. I remember walking into school the first day with sweaty palms feeling as if I would lose my breakfast at any minute. Every other day the rest of the year was pretty much like that first day. It was tough. Thankfully, high school was better.
Before that 8th grade experience I had been very sheltered. All my friends were like me. We went to church together, we went to Christian school together and that pretty much summed up those I spent time with. I lived in a little Christian bubble. That first day, walking into Berwick Junior High with my Z-Cavaricci jeans (hideous…why didn’t someone tell me?!), was the first time that I was faced with kids who were not church kids, who did not hold the same belief system with which I had been raised, and surely didn’t act like the kids I was used to being around.
Fast forward to today. I spend my days in the walls of a church. Don’t get me wrong, I love my job. Thinking and dreaming about ways to connect kids to their Creator is a pretty cool gig, and I’m grateful for it. The danger in this is that sometimes I feel as if I’m right back where I was before that 8th grade transition. My life is immersed with people like me.
The entry from our Lent guide states “Many in our city are trapped in patterns of sin they cannot see. Come Lord Jesus. You are the light of the world.”
When is the last time I’ve had a conversation with someone who does not follow Jesus? How do I even do this? Life is full…very full. Working full time, having three awesome boys, an amazing husband and great friends keeps me running most days, but I am called “to bring out prisoners from the dungeon and those who dwell in darkness from the prison.”
To be honest, thinking about how to make this a part of my life can seem as difficult as walking into that junior high school for the first time many years ago. I know it is what I am called to do as a follower of Christ. I feel compelled to do it, but what does it look like in this life that I am living? Do I need to be more intentional with the lady next to my mat in yoga class this week? Do I need to schedule a hang out time for my boys with a friend that isn’t connected to a church community? These are the things I wrestle with. In this life that God has placed me, how do I shine His light and set those who are captive free?